Well today I think it is my neck pinching again... dang is it making me feel off...
Mom went to see Carol and coming back once again talking about how I eat to Carol and other things. Then she brings up having to work with Glenda on Tuesday for the sale. Something about me having to go to the dentist and Glenda not understanding why she needs to go with. She does not need to go with. She is the one that said I will go with you  if you want but she turned it around to be me again... Trying to take what she says at times with a tooth and fork..
I do not understand why she is worried about how I eat...  And again as last time talking about it to carol... whatever I guess...
Sunday Mum and Dad called to  go online ... intel this point I have not been included for many reasons... But in a way I do not get why... I think I stress Dad out more... I talk it is me... sometimes I think to much. But then I do not know how to handle things with a simple conversation. And with the wedding I don't want to talk about it but what did I do bring it up...

:(

A bit upset... we were going to go out for Breakfast for Mom's upcoming birthday, with Glenda and meeting Randy. But she says she is not going because her throat hurts and is coming down with a cold.
It upsets me more that she has said things about it... Like I wish I did not have to go over to Glenda's on Sunday to work... I don't have cash... she just was dragging her feet a bit...
Chris is not all there either but he still was going to go..
Chris said when he took down her coffee that she said she was up since  am with a head ache and sore throat. He said she sounds it a bit but if she wanted to she could go. There it is if she wanted to.
So more disappointed... Chris is now calling Glenda and then Randy to break the news...
I just hope it is not Mom making more of this to get out of it...
One thing that worries me a bit from writing and letting all know what Jodie said that Kathy has been the only one that has written.. Have not heard from any one else... :(

Tuesdsay 28th of Feb 2012

06:57 on Tuesday the 28th of February.. the second to the last day of this short month of 29 days. Today is Tracy's Birthday a facebook wish and in hope a card..
Chris works 1-5 today not liking the 5 part as much as I liked when he was off at 4 but no complaining. Hope today he finally gets ahold of someone at Walmart it has been a chasing game since last Monday. It is a bit old now.
Cold... snow... sleet...winter storm warning Intel Wed. am... shall see what it brings are way..
07:00 got to get up and go and get Clara started for her day ahead hope it is a good one for her. Chris is not up yet but probably tired from his hours yesterday...he just came out saying he is going to jump in the shower.
So the last Tuesday of Feb 2012... what will it bring????? we shall c

Thursday Th 2-23-12

Chris got a call back on Monday but he was working at the time so he could not get it... It was from Walmart...so now that he was unable to connect on Monday he has been playing chase with her from Walmart her name is Sandy... I hope he gets an answer today and I hope it is what he is looking for... My hope is that Walmart wants Chris...
This morning Clara off to school then we are heading to get Randy with Mom... to see his place... He has to meet with De haven today.
Chris is working 12-4 so I will be picking Clara up from school to get him... Then I am helping tonight in the Kitchen for a Minnesota night at the school... I am helping from 4:45-5:45... should be interesting...
Glenda's house is done... do think I will go in and double check things and get the mail and all.. Glad it is done now it will be interesting if she notices or not... Not sure I will do it again for free thought allot of work went into it.

5:30 am on the 2-19-2012

I know I have gained a bit of weight... reason I know is my jeans fit different... I can get in to them but they don't fit the same... I have an idea... soda crackers here and there... frozen ice cream without weighing it and having it really without knowing the calories in it... this is not me... I don't like how my jeans fit so I need to do something about it...
I am scared to get on the scale to see how much...
Well Saturday afternoon after taking Chris to his 1/2 day but something work... I took the girls and Clara with me while I got Glenda's room and bathroom and formal living room done... the kitchen is done... just a bit more to do to say all done... And dang she is not a clean person... little things show that say she doesn't that much... so will she notice I don't know but in a small way if she does not she is blind really...
So Sunday and Monday off probably and back to it Tuesday to finish then or Wed. Then Glenda gets home on Saturday...
Thursday Randy is coming back down.. re: Dr. De Haven.... and maybe working there... bringing in clients more...
Monday Mom has to help out with the kids at Kirks as he is not home and Tracy has to go to work... She has to be there by 7:30 am... crazy time for her as she is normally not up... But after taking Chris to work I am going to take Clara over to play with them and hang out with Mom... to do something as the kids have off school and to save on gas...

Opportunities: Find the opportunities in difficulties and not the difficulties in opportunities. No matter how bad a situation appears, there is always a positive resulting opportunity if you look for it. It is up to YOU, not someone else, to find that opportunity and decide to make things positive.

Solutions: There is a solution for EVERYONE. You can live with your excuses or you can find solutions. It IS black and white. There is NO grey area. There is a working formula for everyone and there is no exception to the rule.  There is always a solution. You may  just need to think outside of the box or ask for help to find it.

Choice: It is no one else’s fault that you are not where you want to be in life. You make choices every step of the way and you decide every moment to go left or right. No one force feeds you junk food. No one makes all of your decisions for you all of the time.  No matter how bad your situation is, you can control your reaction to things or your attitude about them. This is all up to you.

Success: Sure, it may be harder and more difficult for some and easier for others. Life isn’t always fair but get over it! Figure out a way to make things work for you. There is ALWAYS a formula for success. The stories go both ways. There are stories of those who seem to have black clouds follow them around all of the time and chose to be miserable and there are stories of those who beat the odds and wow the world despite misfortune and bad luck. Be the second one.

You chose every single day to be optimistic or pessimistic and you can always control your attitude. It is no one elses fault. Stop blaming, start working for things and get over yourself and get over your excuses. If you need help, don’t be miserable, don’t complain, don’t put down and insult others for living their best life. Congratulate them and ask them for help.

how bad do you want it

You must not want it bad enough….

There is not enough time in the day.

You have too much to do.

You can’t afford it.

You don’t understand it.

It won’t work for you.

It hurts.

It’s early.

It’s late.

It’s closed.

It’s her fault. It’s his fault.

You are unprepared.

You are tired.

You are too old.

You are too weak.

If only this, if only that.

Another set back.

I quit.

It can’t be done!

YOU MUST NOT WANT IT BAD ENOUGH!

You make time in a day and get done.

You start earlier and go later.

You find less expensive options.

If you don’t understand it you learn it.

If it doesn’t work you, figure out what will work for you.

If it hurts, you change it up.

If it’s early you embrace it.

If it’s late you enjoy it!

If it’s closed you take it outside or to another location.

It’s never someone else’s fault.

You are prepared.

You aren’t tired because you are rested.

You are another year wiser.

You are stronger then yesterday

The timing is perfect!

Another opportunity.

I’m just getting started.

I just did it!